Nonesuch #193 More Soda Sunday on Monday etc

I came across this new diet soda and felt that I couldn't wait till next week to talk about it. It is:
Jazz diet pepsi strawberries and cream. There is also black cherry french vanilla available as well. It does a good job of masking the diet part of the soda but I am not sold on the strawberries and cream part. May try the black cherry one next.

I also forgot to mentioned this other drink I found. Pangleheimers' Spicy Hot Ginger Ale. It is very good, spicy hot. Certainly not a chugging beverage but a sipping one, very good cold. It reminds me of Blenheim ginger ale and I am not sure which is better. Both are certainly not your run of the mill ginger ales.


Had an ok weekend. Went to Sally's birthday dinner Friday night in Durham at the Cheesecake Factory. I really liked that place, the food was really good. We got this large appetizer (4 plates of food). It has Avocado Eggrolls, Spinach and Cheese Dip, Pot Stickers, Summer Rolls, Quesadilla, Corn Cakes, Buffalo Blasts and Calamari. The potsickers and qeusidillas were the highlights to me. The birthday girl had the steak diane that came with a sculpture of mashed potatoes rivaling the Close encounters of the third kind mashed potato tower that Richard Dreyfuss built. She said it was very good. She also had a Pink Lemonade adult beverage. I had the crabcake sandwich which veing good was not what I was looking for. Should have gone with one of their burgers whick I will do the next time I go. The other girl, Lawgirl, had the Chinese Chicken salad which had rice noodles towering 5 inches above the plate. She couldnt finish it it was so huge. Her husband, MS had the Santa Fe Salad I think. They both had mojitos...moooojitoooos...
The last person, KR, had the herb crusted filet of salmon. He too has a tower of mashed potatoes but not like the birthday girl. We all ordered cheesecake to go. But as we were getting ready to leave our waiter brought out a mini hot fudge sundae with a candle on it for Sally. She blew out the candle and we passed it around. It was very good, a precursor to what the cheesecake would be. Sally got the dulce de leche caramel cheesecake, KR got the Godiva Chocolate cheesecake and I got the brownie sundae cheesecake. We all were so full, it was the next day before Sally and I had our cheesecake. Very good. Sally's boyfriend BassCat(he's a professional fisherman and pretty damn good) was not able to make it Friday. They celebrated Sunday night. Sally's Mother and Grandmother came Saturday afternoon, so she had three days of birthday goodness. Her birthday was Saturday, the same as Wil's, for those playing along at home. I came home Saturday afternoon and didnt do much for the rest of the weekend.

Nonesuch # 192 Soda Sunday

Just woke up from a nap and decided to post, so if things dont make sense that is my story and I am sticking to it.

Pom-Tea
I had tried POM Cherry juice a few weeks back and really enjoyed it. So, when I came across Pom tea I just had to try it. It is very good. You can taste the tea with a nice amount of pomegranate juice. And it quenched my thirst yesterday afternoon after drving home in 90+ degree heat. I will be buying both and I recommend both.

Fiji water
Amanda recommended I try Fiji water and I finally found it at a local grocery. It is very good. It almost has no taste but at the same time it has a refreshing taste, if that makes sense. I have Fiji water on my next grocery list.

Honest Tea Green Dragon Tea
A green tea sweetened with lemon(which I cannot taste) and passion fruit flavor. In fact I didnt taste much else but a strong taste of green tea. I wanted a bit more sweetness so I may try one of their other green teas. Have three more bottles of the green dragon so will wait till I finish those before giving my final decision.

Nonesuch # 191 Friday Flower

Miniature rose from my small garden, taken July 1st of this year. After the big Mother's Day storm this year, I was afraid I lost most of my plants. In the end, I may have lost 1 or 2 but the rest are doing well.

Nonesuch # 190 3 for 3

Well, so far I am perfect in the online dating world, if that is what you can call it. I have met 3 very interesting girls through various online dating sites. We seem to be getting along fine, emailing about life, the things we like to do, TV we like to watch, music, books etc and then for some reason, and one by one they have stopped emailing. No reason that I can tell, they just stop. It really makes me wonder what is up. Is it something I said or did not say? Is it something I did or didn't do? Did I pass some magical demarcation line of not asking her to coffee and now she has decided to stop communication? If she does not feel a spark or no longer wants to get to know me, she should tell me and then I can continue my search. But as it is now, I feel hung out and not sure of anything especially myself.

Well, at least I am batting 1000.

PS. Now that I think on it, it is the magical demarcation line. I have spoke of it before as not knowing when I meet a nice girl when to ask her out. It slips by and then, just friends. Well, at least I don't get the "let's just be friends" speech much.

*update* ok. I take most of this back, #3 just emailed me. She has had computer problems all week. So, I eat my words.

Nonesuch #189

Today is Jeremy Piven's 41st birthday.

Here's to the guy that brought us PCU:

Droz: What's this? You're wearing the shirt of the band you're going to see? Don't be that guy.

Droz: What's Your major?
Sanskrit Major: Sanskrit
Droz: Sanskrit. You are majoring in a 5000 year old dead language?
Sanskrit Major: Yeah



To the guy that has showed up in many John Cusack films including:

Say Anything
Mark: Give me my Firebird keys!

Grosse Pointe Blank
Paul: 10 years!

Serendipity
Dean: You're the shit!
[man next to him on plane looks over at him thinking he's talking to him]
Jonathan: [to the guy] That would be me, the shit.


One Crazy Summer:
(couldnt find a quote from him in this one) I think this is the only movie with both of them in it where Piven is not Cusack's best buddy.

and others.

Another great movie:

Singles
Doug Hughley: You're the only man I know who could mix Elvis Costello and Public Enemy!
[singing]
What's so funny about... peace, peace, peace... love and under... peace, peace. / Death Row, what does a brother know? peace, peace. / Yow, wow, wow, wow, wow, kapow! You're the King, man, you are the King!

Cupid
A great show that didnt last much more than half a season and from what I understand there are no plans for it to be released on DVD.

And I almost forgot Old School
Dean Pritchard: Actually, my name's not Cheese anymore. It's Gordon Pritchard.
Beanie: Oh yeah. Cheeeeeese. Yeah, didn't we lock you in a dumpster one time?
Dean Pritchard: Yea, I got out.

His parents, Joyce Piven and the late Byrne Piven, founded the Piven Theatre Workshop. Classically trained at his parent's theatre school in Evanston, IL, he formed a long lasting friendship with John Cusack, who trained with him. That alone makes him cool.

Nonesuch # 188 T-shirt Tuesday

I was wrong. I do have a T-shirt Tuesday image. I took it way back in February and posted it over at my Flickr page. Here it is:



I know doesnt much look like a t-shirt but it is. Was trying to take a picture for another blog. This is how it turned out. Not how I thought it would turn out, but I like it. On the back it says HAWESOME!

Nonesuch #187

First things first, I dont know why my links, song lists etc are missing from my blog. I have sent an email to blogger telling them about the problem. Yesterday it was I couldnt comment on people's blogs all morning and somehow I managed to post the same post 5 times so had to go back and delete 5 copies. Second, I didnt bring the camera with me home last night. Didnt realize it till after 11pm so the TST will happen sometime later today. Not sure on the exact time. Depends on how the day goes. Third, it is cool today but raining, well more drizzly but at least we are not roasting like we did all last week. So here is a picture of me of what I will look like in the future but really in the past. Yeah, doesnt make sense to me either.


**update** Links etc are back now that I submitted a new post. Strange...

Nonesuch #186 Tell me why? I don't like Mondays

Another Monday after a long weekend which:

went by too fast...

didnt turn out they way I thought it would(more on that below)...

was hot until the rain came.

Well, I thought I had more things to say about the weekend. well I do but it really doesnt make sense to continue with a list. I visted Sally and did some banking on Friday. She has helped me set up a few cds to help me save money for what I am not sure. For some reason it feels good to have a nest egg no matter how small. It is growing and with interest rates they way they are now(and rising), its not a bad time to save, that is if you have extra cash to put away. Well, I get there and ends up she has to work Saturday morning, look into a part time job around noon, go to a friend's house to water plants and has a birthday party that evening. 3 out of the 4 of these things I did not know about. The party I knew about and I was going to leave before she went to it. Before that she was going to see if I could come. It was for her boyfriend's sister's husband's father and let me just say I didnt feel comfortable with that situation especially considering what happened last time. So, I came home Saturday morning. I watched the British Open. I played some DDO. Saturday night we ran a nice quest series. I made good coin and am a few thousand xp from 6th level. I did find out I dont get any new spells at 6th which is a let down but I do have some armor and a shield my bank that I can wear once I hit 6th. I tell ya, with the DSL the game is so much more enjoyable. Still have some lag issues but I am working on those with settings in the game.

Cleaned my fridge out yesterday. It needed it. Lets just say I had milk in there from last year. Then I went shopping at WalMart. I am not going to do that on a Sunday afternoon again. Just too many folks there. I bought a new DVD player. Cannot remember if I mentioned it before but for some reason my PS2 would play some DVDs and others it would get all fuzzy. Thought it was my PS2. Its not and I feel really stupid. It seems that with the newer DVD and DVD players, they can tell if you are plugging into through a VCR so it auto-scrambles of course for protection purposes. PS2 had no documentation about this but the VCS did. So, I had to pull out another TV of mine and set the DVD player up on it. BUT, I can watch my DVDs now. Watched some of Chappelle's Show first season. That is one funny man. And watched Hudson Hawk one of my favorite films. I have the Battlestar Galactica mini-series all ready to go when I get home.

Diet A&W root beer passes my test. I will be buying that in the future. I am working on Sierra Mist Free now. So far, it is ok. Not as sweet as Sierra Mist regular but not too bad. Also got some Propel Grape. I like the Berry Propel better I think. It is not as good as the Powerade Option Grape I had last week. I looked for both the Fiji water and the Volvic water. Couldnt find either one of those at Walmart, imagine that. But will look at Harris Teeter next time I am there. I did find this story about Fiji water on the internets

I hope I can remember to bring the camera home this afternoon. I have 3 shirts ready to be photographed for TST.

Nonesuch # 185 Friday Flower, Sunday Soda etc

I know it is early for this but I will be out of town on Friday and may not have a time to post this then. So here it is:



I also just realized that I will still be out of town on Sunday so I will go ahead a post my drinks of this week.

Earlier this week I tried Powerade Option Grape flavor, their low calorie sports drink. It had a nice grape flavor with little aftertaste. I will be buying it again. It is not that widely available where I live but a few stores nearby have it.

I am working on a 2 liter of diet A&W root beer. I am just not sure about it right so far. The root beer flavor is there but it somehow tastes flat even though it is carbonated just the same as the regular root beer. I will finish the 2 liter before I make a final decision. I will say it wouldnt be bad over some vanilla ice cream, reduced fat or regular.

Another hot one here AND we have a tropical storm on our coast named Beryl. I have a cousin named Beryl so it is sort of funny to me. Somehow I thought the "B" named storm this year was going to be Bud. They are not sure where the storm will go so I guess it is wait and see. Would be nice to have some rain to cool things off some but it the middle of summer. The heat has put me in a don't want to do much mode. Plus, I have a theory about summer time. A good number of people around my age at least went to school k-12 or 13 years plus 4 more of college and perhaps 2 more of grad school or 5 years of undergraduate so around 20 or years of school. With each school year, there came summer break, vacation time. Our minds and bodies are accustomed to this break each year and now that that break does not come, we tend to not be so productive during this time of year. I know I get like this and I look at my calendar and there is not much left until classes start again. Actually 4 weeks till then. Oh well. I always plan what I am going to do over summer, cleaning, trip or two. Didnt even do that this year. I never did them in the past, no point in starting now.
I had mentioned doing a theme post every day. I dont think that will happen even if I could find something specific to post about each day. Even with T-shirt Tuesday I left a rambling post. I did find some of my t-shirts last night so I will have a few weeks worth of posts for those days. We shall see.
Stay cool, do what I do, I have a cup of ice in front of a fan on my desk. Instant AC. But what I really want is this: Desktop Personal Air Conditioner

Nonesuch # 184 T-shirt Tuesday

I think I first saw this done over at The Real Kidd's blog. Thought it was a good idea. Was going to take the camera home with me and take photos of my what I think is cool, collection of t-shirts. Of course I leave the camera at work, so...I had to go searching for images of my t-shirts which doesn't sound that difficult but when you realize that some of them are 10 years plus old, I just cannot find a lot of them. But, I did come across this one. I bought it at lollapalooza 1995. For some reason I thought it was 1996 but the lineup at Wikipedia tells me different. Great show, we saw:

Pavement - 2nd of 2 shows we saw them that year.
Sonic Youth - 1st of 2 shows we saw them that year.
Mike Watt - fuckin awesome to see this guy in person. One of the greats. We were hoping the Sonic youth folks would join him but it didn't happen.
Mighty Mighty Bosstones
hole - which I like to forget. She was drunk and hit on some guy on the front row and almost got into a fight with someone. Glad to see that one end.
Cypres Hill - left that one after 2nd song, I think
Superchunk - local band, where are they now?
Beck - for some reason I forgot we saw him. Huh...
Moby - I forgot he was there as well. I think we heard him but was watching Mike Watt during his time. Wasn't too into his music then so it didn't matter.

Anyway, good times I tell ya. So, here is the shirt. I got a lot of teasing over the years for this shirt. Go figure. I just thought it was cool.



Next week I will have pictures of my actual shirts.

Nonesuch #183 Yes, we're gonna have to go right to ludicrous speed.

Well, my DSL is all hooked up and going strong. I hope to never have to go back to dial up ever again. The set up was straight forward but I broke my long telephone wire so I have all the equipment spread across the living room floor but as soon as I get a new wire and I can get set up with high speed and wireless. It really improved DDO(dungeons and dragons online). I dont have has much lag and when I do have it, it goes away faster. I havent done a full group yet but with 3-4 folks I saw no problems. The only problem I do have is with the way I play the game. I need to get better, I do stupid things that get me killed and slow the group(s) down. I think now that I have DSL and am up to speed with the game, I will get better with time.

And that was my weekend in a nutshell. Yeah, I know exciting times. I did take some pictures of a sunflower that I have. It is so hot here, mid 90s, heat index over 100. Tomorrow is supposed to be the hottest day of the year so far. Most of the summer break is over and I really havent done anything that I planned. I seem to be busier at work during the summer than I am during the regular part of the year. It feels like catch up but I am not behind in anything. Its just the way it feels.

Thinking aboud doing a Soda Sunday where I talk about new drinks I am trying in my search for a diet soda I like. Not really a diet drink but I enjoy Arizona Grapeade. From the makers of Arizona teas, they also have lemonade, orangade and fruit punch. I really like their Lemon Tea.
I also tried the new 7up all natural soda. It was ok. It tasted like 7up but didnt have the fizz I remember it having. Still I drank a 2 liter yesterday so it isnt that bad.

Hmmm, if I came up with a theme for each day of the week, what would folks think? I tend to favor a random rambling format but some kind of regular pattern if you will, may be a good thing. May try it out.

Nonesuch # 182 Friday Flower

Got this idea from one of my work listservs.



Off purple miniature rose with what I think is a sweat bee from my small garden.

Nonesuch #181

Update on the diet drinks...

I tried the Propel - natural Berry Flavors water fitness water today. Much better than the Lemon I had tried before. Wanted to try the Grape as suggested by Anne but couldnt find any so went with the Berry. Nicely flavored, not really overpowering and no aftertaste that you get with some of those flavored waters.

**update** diet ginger all is ok. Didnt like it at first but it grew on me.

Thought I was getting the diet cherry coke but got the "real thing" instead.

That is all for the diet soda update.

Hot out there today and humid. Chance of storms. A bit of rain would be nice to cool things off.

Went home for lunch and had a note from my phone company saying my Broadband was on outside and I was good to go. Now, just need for the router/modem package to arrive, which it is supposed today, and get that all hooked up. I am excited and anxious to see just how much quicker it is than dial up.

I recently came across this thing called T-shirt Tuesday or something like that where people post images of their T-shirts. I may start doing that. Hmm, will look into it.

Nonesuch #180 Craziness of the day

It took a hammer and screwdriver to open up a bottle of FlavorSplash water from the makers of Aquafina this morning. I have no idea what they did to make it so hard to open. I do have arthritis in my hands and have problems opening up things from time to time but this bottle was ridiculous. I have to hold the bottle and use the hammer to bang on the screwdriver which was angled on the bottom of the cap to cause a crack on two sides of the cap to finally break the cap off the bottle. Good thing is, I didn't lose much water.

Nonesuch #179

I was requested to make post #179 so here it is. You know who you are. :)
Not much has been going on since my last post. Mostly been worn out from the heat even when it cooled down some over the weekened, I was still worn out. Cleaned up some as I thought I was getting high speed cable connection at home. But after four days or run around they finally told me that it would not cost $49.95, but closer to $65 or higher and then they could not find the town I lived in in their service area. They said I was in the Greensboro area a good hour away. They asked if I wanted the number there and know that I was not in the Greensboro area(I worked for this company in the Greensboro area 10 years ago) I said no thanks and begin to look for more options. Found out that my local phone company offers DSL where I live. I signed up and wil be getting local and long distance and DSL service for around $50. I get all the stuff Thursday and should be up and running by that evening. Took half of my Monday to get that settled. It was a slow day at work so I had the time.
Today I went to the eye doctor. They have been testing me to see if I have glaucoma for the past 2 years. I have several aunts and uncles that have it so it is close in my family on both sides. I am borderline so my doctor wants to keep me under watch. He did find a sty on my right eye so I have medicine for that. Drops to put in my eyes twice a day. Came home with Arby's roast beef sandwiches and their new orange creme swirl shake which was very good.
And now it is time for a nap. I am worn out from my day at the eye doctor's.

I have been planning a post on diet sodas I have tried. I am trying to find one I can drink regularly. I wil attempt to list the ones I have tried. If anyone has any suggestions, put them in the comments section and I will see if it is available near me.

Diet coke - regular
diet coke -splenda
coke zero
Pepsi one
diet pepsi
diet Mt Dew
diet cheerwine
diet sundrop
diet minute maid lemonade
diet sprite
Sierra Mist free
diet sunkist
tab(its been some years but I still tried it)
diet dr pepper

I like the diet dr pepper and diet pepsi. But I know there are many more I have not tried. Please send me some suggestions.

Nonesuch #178

More good news: Magazine Man found Blaze and they are both at home, well, worse for the wear. Follow the link and see the outcome. He went through Hell and back to get his dog back home. I hope I would have the same conviction if something like this ever happened to any of my future pets. Here is to you Magazine Man and to Blaze. WOOT!

Nonesuch # 177

This is the day I have been both looking forward to and dreading. It is the anniversary of when my ex and I got together and it would have been 5 years if we had stayed together. All that changed last October.

I had a burning today, burning of a picture that we had taken together about 4 months into our relationship. I wasn't sure what to do with it at first. I almost sent it with her stuff but for some reason I just threw it in the corner of the bedroom and it stayed there until this morning.



I have other pictures but I don't feel like putting them up on here. If interested to see, send me an email but I cannot guarantee that I will still have them. Some of them have her image and that is the last thing I want to keep around.

Nonesuch #176

Random thoughts as I drink a Guinness

Ray Charles was a damn good singer.

The more I hear this "new country" that comes out these days, the more I dislike it. Give me Johnny Cash, Willie Nelson, Roy Clark and Buck Owens anyday.

Guinness is a damn fine beer. As we used to say, a meal in a can. But I am drinking the draught from the bottle.

I used to really like 4th of July. The older I get the less I do. Not sure why. Was really fun going to see the fireworks at Lake Junaluska. You have never experienced fireworks until you see and hear them over the mountains reflecting the lake. Havent been in years. Good stuff.
On a side note, dont really have much use for any of the holidays much anymore.

Finished my lawn today. May get up in the morning and work on my ditches out front. The May Day storm brought a lot of leaves and plugged up the pipeways. May wait till weekend when it is cooler.

My dryer died this evening. It still drys but does not tumble. I am hoping it is just a belt and I do not have to get a brand new one. I was planning to get roadrunner highspeed cable access this week but that may have to be put on the backburner. Also, there goes my tax refund. Such is life.

Was thinking, Ben Franklin is my favorite founding father/mother. I like Tom Jefferson as well. But really can connect with Franklin. The man did it all. He had so many interests and he did them all well. He had a sense of humor and was not afraid to use it. I consider him the last renaissance man.

Thats it. May go to bed early. If I do, probably will be awake at 4am or earlier.

**update** awake at 2:18am, sigh....And now for some real news:

53-Plus Hot Dogs Wins Japanese Man Coney Island Title

NEW YORK -- Takeru Kobayashi has his sixth straight title in the annual Independence Day hot-dog-eating competition on Coney Island.

The Japanese eater crammed 53 and three-quarter hot dogs down his gullet in 12 minutes, or a quarter of a wiener more than the record he set at the same competition two years ago.

Second place went to American Joey Chestnut, who choked down 52 Nathan's franks.

Thousands of spectators watched the competition at the original Nathan's Famous hot dog stand on Brooklyn's seashore.

Copyright 2006 by The Associated Press. All rights reserved.

Nonesuch #175 I read the news today, oh boy

4:05am Woke up after falling asleep after laying there for what seemed like hours. I have a lot on my mind these days and it was all going through my mind while trying to go to sleep. It's not like it is any different than the rest of the weekend.

4:10am Flipped channels since COPS was not on. They had a StarGate SG1 rerun with special guest: the guy that played the lead in "The Nanny", (Mr Sheffield, I think)

4:30 Settled on ABC Morning News. Two gys making bad jokes in between news stories. I guess no one watching it doesnt really matter.

4:40 Switched back to StarGate and sort of fell asleep till...

5am News comes on. I can rest once more.

6:40am Woke up hungry. Decided to eat and rest some before starting yard work.

7:18am Blogging this now. 10 min till I go to pick up sticks. That is probably all I will do outdoors today. Going to be hottest day of the year. I will wait to mow tomorrow. I also have some flowers I would like to plant tomorrow as well.
I am off work till Thursday. A nice 5 day weekend, a mini-vacation.

I am a bit better than my last post. Wednesday would have been 5 years but my ex fucked a sailor last October and put an end to that. The anniversary on the 5th will be the last big event that we will not spend together. Birthdays have come and gone, Christmas, New Years, Valentine's Day are all past. I have come a long way and I still have a ways to go. I sent my last post to a friend. She spent the morning apologize but she just didnt get what I was trying to say. She said you will find someone, that I am looking for passion and love etc etc, of course coming from someone who is at the beginning of a relationship and is all puppy dog luvy wuvy. I guess I should tell her not to take him to the airport anytime soon

Harry: You take someone to the airport, its clearly the beginning of the relationship. That's why I have never taken anyone to the airport at the beginning of a relationship.
Sally: Why?
Harry: Because eventually things move on and you don't take someone to the airport and I never wanted anyone to say to me, How come you never take me to the airport anymore?
Sally: Its amazing. You look like a normal person but actually you are the angel of death.

Anyway...

(That's my transition)

A good number of my blog friends are going through some heavy stuff lately. Keep Magazine Man(Blaze, his family dog stolen), Random(measles. No really), Puffin(wife has vertigo, CT scan coming up). Keep them all in your thoughts.

Off to the great outdoors. I hope this will not take long. It is getting hot already. Just checked my outside thermometer and it is 76 and just past 7:30.

**update** 8:07am In 30 min or so, got all the sticks and limbs into a pile or on my wheelbarrow type thing and watered the plants and put WD40 on the garden hose connection to the house. It has rusted over the years and now I cannot get it off so I can replace it. I am hoping the WD40 will loosen it up so I can get it off with a wrench of some type. So far, it is not looking good.

8:23am Hose removed and disposed of. Break time.

9:05-10:00 mowed 3/4 of the yard. It did the most of the largest part of the yard. Got just a bit left near the front.

10:30 Time to play some DDO. All I have left on my agenda is to pay rent.

Nonesuch #174

In the past few days I have been an asshole to a few of my close friends. It is nothing they have done. I just needed time to think which can be a good thing and it can be a bad thing. I think we all know that. Things have been very busy at work with a retirement of someone who as worked there for 36 years. He started there 4 months before I was even born. I hadn't had time to just go through things in my head.

Anyway...

What got me thinking was a question from someone on eharmony I have been in contact with. "what do you want in a relationship partner." I know now why I was having trouble answering that one; I am not ready for one if I ever will be. Basically I do not see myself trusting anyone again enough to get close to them. I am not putting all the blame on CW(my ex) but she is a lot of it. I look back on all my failed relationships and I see the common denominator and it is me. No way to know the whats, whys, hows etc. It just is. Counseling certainly sounds like an option. And I know I have said that before. Just not sure where to begin with that. And I am jealous of two of my close friends (both women) who are already seeing someone after both of their long time relationships ended. It doesn't make sense to me. Hell, one of them was married. Now I am not saying that it is wrong or a bad thing. One door closes, another opens and I am happy for both of them cause they are close friends. I just want to know when it is my turn? And the more I thought on it, I have had my turn(s) in the relationship world. I am cancelling eharmony once I hear back from that girl. I added at the end of the questions that I was cancelling and if she wanted to stay in contact here was my email. Do we really need eharmony to stay in contact? I didn't add that but I was thinking it. If she does, cool. If not, whatever. I am just tired of putting myself out there for no return. And the only way not to have that happen anymore is to not put myself out there anymore. I know, easy way out.

I hope this makes sense, it is 2:30am, and I cannot sleep (imagine that) and all this is going through my head and I thought I would get it down in a post before it all went away sometime between now and sunrise. So, there you go. Well, back to the sofa.