I'm just so lonely. I feel people getting further away from me or me
getting away from them. I don't like drama or whatever you call it
anymore, don't put up with it and find myself angry a lot once I am
alone at home. I am not sure if this is a getting older thing or just where I am at this moment in time or just the holiday blues. When I think on it, I am doing ok. Great job, 3-4 close friends, I don't seem them like I want to, they are scattered all over the globe, from middle america to the middle east. Email and instant messaging are great tools to keep the communication going but I miss the sitting around with a few beers or liquor with great music in the background and great conversation. Perhaps I did have a a rough few years in college: bumpy relationship with a girl that we both realized we were not for each other 6 months in but stretched it out for almost 4 years. Talk about about wasted youth. I did have some great times and those are what I remember and miss.
2006 went by so fast. I guess that is good in some ways but where did it go? I had things I wanted to do, never got to them. You could say I had plans that never panned out. Maybe in 2007 but if things go like 2006, I will more than likely be right back here typing the same thing in December 2007.
But in 2006, I have met some great blog folks. Its nutty how by only reading their blogs and emails you feel you get to know these people. Without the internet, the possibility of knowing folks from England, New Zealand, Texas, California and points in between would never have happened.
My resolutions are over. And yes they are a bit tongue in cheek but I wanted to go with things I could actually achieve. Resolutions put so much stress on folks well from what I have seen. I want things different in 2007 but I am the only one that can actually do anything about what I do or don't do.
So, here is to the last days of 2006 and the first days of 2007.
Saturday, December 30, 2006
Thursday, December 28, 2006
Nonesuch #241 2007 Resolution #4
I resolve to have an even more screwed up sleep pattern than I had throughout 2006. Waking up anywhere from 2am to 3:20 am everyday no matter if I went to sleep at 10pm or midnight. My friends say that this is not possible but I can and will have a more screwed up sleep schedule.
Listening to: Enjoy the Silence - Depeche Mode
Listening to: Enjoy the Silence - Depeche Mode
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Nonesuch #240 2007 Resolution #3
I resolve to have a lesser number of dates than I had in 2006 which will actually put me in the negatives since now that I think on it, the only person that thinks I had two dates in 2006 was me. My friends say that this is not possible but I can and will have lesser number of dates.
(see resolution #1)
Listening to: Sour Times - Portishead
(see resolution #1)
Listening to: Sour Times - Portishead
Nonesuch #239 2007 Resolution #2
I resolve for my house to be messier and unorganized as it ever has. My friends say this is not possible but I can and will overcome the odds and maintain a mess.
Listening to: Rusty Cage - Soundgarden
Listening to: Rusty Cage - Soundgarden
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Nonesuch #238 2007 Resolution #1
First in a series:
I resolve in 2007 to be even more lonely than I have been this year. My friends do not believe it can be done but I can and will become more lonely.
Listening to: Fascination Street (extended mix)- the cure
I resolve in 2007 to be even more lonely than I have been this year. My friends do not believe it can be done but I can and will become more lonely.
Listening to: Fascination Street (extended mix)- the cure
Nonesuch #237
I want to send a special Happy Boxing Day to my friends who are from Canada, England and New Zealand. You all know who you are. hehe Also, Happy Many Happy Returns/Gift Card Spending Day for everyone else.
Later this week there will be New Year's Resolutions posted. In the past, I have said that my resolution would be to make no more resolutions and that I have realized is just a cop out on my part. So, be on the lookout.
Later this week there will be New Year's Resolutions posted. In the past, I have said that my resolution would be to make no more resolutions and that I have realized is just a cop out on my part. So, be on the lookout.
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Nonesuch #236
While waiting for xp pro to load on my new computer, I will do another stolen meme, this time from The Real Kidd:
1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought? My eyebrows really are gray.
2. How much cash do you have on you? $0 (zero)
3. What's a word that rhymes with DOOR? more
4. Favorite planet? In the past I would have said Pluto but now that it is no longer a planet, I am not sure.
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone? Sally
6. What is your favorite ring tone on your phone? My phone stays on vibrate.
7. What shirt are you wearing? Green t-shirt
8. Do you label yourself? me
9. Name the brand of the shoes you're currently wearing: Van's
10. Bright or Dark Room? Medium, I like to be able to see what I am typing.
11. Why is there always a missing question? Why are there always dumb question? Does it really matter?
12. What does your watch look like? My cellphone is my watch.
13. What were you doing at midnight last night? Trying to sleep.
14. What did your last text message you received on your cell phone say? "skeep well" Don't ask.
15. Where is your nearest 7-11? Probably in the big city.
16. What's a word that you say a lot? damn
17. Who told you he/she loved you last? don't remember. **update** I remember now, the cheating whore
18. Last furry thing you touched? My friend Sally's dog.
19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days? Nexium and Airborne.
20. How many rolls of film do you need developed? 0/zero, I have digital camera.
21. Favorite age you have been so far? Not sure
22. Your worst enemy? Probably myself.
23. What is your current desktop picture? A grateful dead/firefox mixed symbol that I found from Wil Wheaton's blog.
24. What was the last thing you said to someone? "Goodbye"
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly, what would it be? money
26. Do you like someone? huh?
27. The last song you listened to? "Something" by the Beatles
28. What time of day were you born? 12:40am
29. What's your favorite number? 11. 9 and 13
30. Where did you live in 1987? Benson, NC
31. Are you jealous of anyone? no
32. Is anyone jealous of you? I really doubt it.
33. Where were you when 9/11 happened? Was in my office, waiting on some students to come use documents for a project they were working on. I listened to the BBC radio on the computer at the time and the program interrupted saying that a plane had hit one of the Twin Towers. I went to cnn.com while listening to the BBC. The students came in and we sat around the computer. Then we went upstairs and sat up a TV and watch ABC the rest of the day. I day come home and wake my girlfriend at the time who was from New York state and had lived in NYC for a time when she was younger.
34. What do you do when vending machines steal your money? I don't use vending machines.
35. Do you consider yourself kind? I try to be. Sometimes that is all one can be asked to do.
36. If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be? My back and it would be Lord of the Rings themed in some way. When I was younger I had an elaborate plan to start with the one ring and then around it, add different element of the story, including characters, sword, places and so forth. Do not see that happening now.
37. If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be? I really like Latin.
38. Would you move for the person you loved? Not sure.
39. Are you touchy-feely? Depends
40. What's your life motto? I'm not unwell, thank you.
41. Name three things you have on you at all times: glasses, cellphone, wallet
42. What's your favorite town/city? Not sure, Chicago was fun and so was NYC but I think I like Gold Hill.
43. What was the last thing you paid for with cash? food, think it was Bojangle's.
44. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper and mailed it? Long long time ago.
45. Can you change the oil on a car? Yes.
46. Your first love: what is the last thing you heard about him/her? She had her first child, married for 4 or six years. We haven't spoke in over 15 years.
47. How far back do you know your ancestry? I have been told that we are related to the mayor of nottingham at the time that all the Robin Hood stuff was actually going on but as soon as the Sheriff of nottingham came to power, my family left town very fast.
48. The last time you dressed fancy, what did you wear and why did you dress fancy? Probably my close friend's wedding 4 years ago. Wore a nice tux.
49. Does anything hurt on your body right now? My fingers and my legs. Damn arthritis.
50. Have you ever been burned by love? too many times, dammit.
51. Do you have a crush on any bloggers? no
52. Where would you like to live? in a house of my own
1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought? My eyebrows really are gray.
2. How much cash do you have on you? $0 (zero)
3. What's a word that rhymes with DOOR? more
4. Favorite planet? In the past I would have said Pluto but now that it is no longer a planet, I am not sure.
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone? Sally
6. What is your favorite ring tone on your phone? My phone stays on vibrate.
7. What shirt are you wearing? Green t-shirt
8. Do you label yourself? me
9. Name the brand of the shoes you're currently wearing: Van's
10. Bright or Dark Room? Medium, I like to be able to see what I am typing.
11. Why is there always a missing question? Why are there always dumb question? Does it really matter?
12. What does your watch look like? My cellphone is my watch.
13. What were you doing at midnight last night? Trying to sleep.
14. What did your last text message you received on your cell phone say? "skeep well" Don't ask.
15. Where is your nearest 7-11? Probably in the big city.
16. What's a word that you say a lot? damn
17. Who told you he/she loved you last? don't remember. **update** I remember now, the cheating whore
18. Last furry thing you touched? My friend Sally's dog.
19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days? Nexium and Airborne.
20. How many rolls of film do you need developed? 0/zero, I have digital camera.
21. Favorite age you have been so far? Not sure
22. Your worst enemy? Probably myself.
23. What is your current desktop picture? A grateful dead/firefox mixed symbol that I found from Wil Wheaton's blog.
24. What was the last thing you said to someone? "Goodbye"
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly, what would it be? money
26. Do you like someone? huh?
27. The last song you listened to? "Something" by the Beatles
28. What time of day were you born? 12:40am
29. What's your favorite number? 11. 9 and 13
30. Where did you live in 1987? Benson, NC
31. Are you jealous of anyone? no
32. Is anyone jealous of you? I really doubt it.
33. Where were you when 9/11 happened? Was in my office, waiting on some students to come use documents for a project they were working on. I listened to the BBC radio on the computer at the time and the program interrupted saying that a plane had hit one of the Twin Towers. I went to cnn.com while listening to the BBC. The students came in and we sat around the computer. Then we went upstairs and sat up a TV and watch ABC the rest of the day. I day come home and wake my girlfriend at the time who was from New York state and had lived in NYC for a time when she was younger.
34. What do you do when vending machines steal your money? I don't use vending machines.
35. Do you consider yourself kind? I try to be. Sometimes that is all one can be asked to do.
36. If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be? My back and it would be Lord of the Rings themed in some way. When I was younger I had an elaborate plan to start with the one ring and then around it, add different element of the story, including characters, sword, places and so forth. Do not see that happening now.
37. If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be? I really like Latin.
38. Would you move for the person you loved? Not sure.
39. Are you touchy-feely? Depends
40. What's your life motto? I'm not unwell, thank you.
41. Name three things you have on you at all times: glasses, cellphone, wallet
42. What's your favorite town/city? Not sure, Chicago was fun and so was NYC but I think I like Gold Hill.
43. What was the last thing you paid for with cash? food, think it was Bojangle's.
44. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper and mailed it? Long long time ago.
45. Can you change the oil on a car? Yes.
46. Your first love: what is the last thing you heard about him/her? She had her first child, married for 4 or six years. We haven't spoke in over 15 years.
47. How far back do you know your ancestry? I have been told that we are related to the mayor of nottingham at the time that all the Robin Hood stuff was actually going on but as soon as the Sheriff of nottingham came to power, my family left town very fast.
48. The last time you dressed fancy, what did you wear and why did you dress fancy? Probably my close friend's wedding 4 years ago. Wore a nice tux.
49. Does anything hurt on your body right now? My fingers and my legs. Damn arthritis.
50. Have you ever been burned by love? too many times, dammit.
51. Do you have a crush on any bloggers? no
52. Where would you like to live? in a house of my own
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Nonesuch #235
**update** - GIANT magazine has posted the best Hanna-Barbera intros of all time
You make not recognize the face, but you know the name. As one half of one of the, if not the best ever, cartoon animators, Joseph Barbera and his parter William Hanna were behind some of the best known and best loved characters in all of cartoondom. Among these are:
Huckleberry Hound
Quick Draw McGraw
Top Cat
Space Ghost(Birdman)
Galaxy Trio
Jonny Quest
The Jetsons
Scooby Doo
Tom & Jerry
Yogi Bear(and Boo Boo)
The Flintstones
And produced the following:
Super Friends
The Amazing Chan and the Chan Clan
Hong Kong Phooey
Captain Caveman
Smurfs
The Hair Bear Bunch!
Josie and The Pussycats
And many many more that I cannot come up with off the top of my head.
Joseph Barbera died yesterday at the age of 95.
Saturday, December 16, 2006
Nonesuch #234 A Poll
Why I am not online much anymore
a) Work is too crazy
b) Sleeping my way to fitness
c) Been "busy" wink wink nudge nudge say no more
d) Bored with the whole bebo, myspace, okcupid scene, its so 2006
e) Been busy bringing sexyback
Please respond in the comments section if you want to. I am not the boss of you now.
a) Work is too crazy
b) Sleeping my way to fitness
c) Been "busy" wink wink nudge nudge say no more
d) Bored with the whole bebo, myspace, okcupid scene, its so 2006
e) Been busy bringing sexyback
Please respond in the comments section if you want to. I am not the boss of you now.
Monday, December 11, 2006
Nonesuch #233 Ramble On
Many things going on in my head but nothing is gelling so here goes:
Cold here, was 14 Saturday morning and that is cold for the middle of NC. Mountains had some snow but not much. The ski areas are making much snow so the skiers have some great conditions with most of the trails and runs open.
I worked this weekend. It is exam time. There were more folks in on Saturday than Sunday. There was a heat problem so it was quite chilly on the inside. I am hot natured so for me to say it is cold, it really is cold.
2 weeks till Christmas. I have done little shopping, no decorating and no mood changing whatsoever. We did have drop-ins last week with some good food. In the past, they have helped to get me festive but not this year. I don't feel the excitement I thought I would even though I have said I will not be celebrating.
Watched the live action Grinch movie over the weekend and I was disappointed. It was an hour too long, they created a back story that didn't add anything. But, Jim Carry is the Grinch. They are showing the original "How the Grinch Stole Christmas" sometime this week. Cannot go wrong with the classics. I missed Rudolph The Red Nosed Reindeer the other night. I couldn't get CBS to come in on my TV. So, I watched WWE Smackdown on the CW, which is what I normally do on Friday night anyway.
You know, it is really sad when all of my fantasies about bringing a girl home start: "And yeah, my house is cleaned up."
Cold here, was 14 Saturday morning and that is cold for the middle of NC. Mountains had some snow but not much. The ski areas are making much snow so the skiers have some great conditions with most of the trails and runs open.
I worked this weekend. It is exam time. There were more folks in on Saturday than Sunday. There was a heat problem so it was quite chilly on the inside. I am hot natured so for me to say it is cold, it really is cold.
2 weeks till Christmas. I have done little shopping, no decorating and no mood changing whatsoever. We did have drop-ins last week with some good food. In the past, they have helped to get me festive but not this year. I don't feel the excitement I thought I would even though I have said I will not be celebrating.
Watched the live action Grinch movie over the weekend and I was disappointed. It was an hour too long, they created a back story that didn't add anything. But, Jim Carry is the Grinch. They are showing the original "How the Grinch Stole Christmas" sometime this week. Cannot go wrong with the classics. I missed Rudolph The Red Nosed Reindeer the other night. I couldn't get CBS to come in on my TV. So, I watched WWE Smackdown on the CW, which is what I normally do on Friday night anyway.
You know, it is really sad when all of my fantasies about bringing a girl home start: "And yeah, my house is cleaned up."
Friday, December 08, 2006
Nonesuch # 232
"Every year, let's make December 8th the day to ask for forgiveness from those who suffered the insufferable. Let's wish strongly that one day we will be able to say that we healed ourselves, and by healing ourselves, we healed the world." - yoko ono
Nonesuch #231 steal your face right off your head
A-Available/Single? Single and lovin it giggity giggity goo (sarcasm in effect)
• B-Best Friend? I had a best friend once, in high school. He lied to me, tried to take my girlfriend and was the cause of me being in the hospital for 3 days. I havent designated a best friend since. Kinda sad really.
• C-Cake or Pie? yes, please
• D-Drink Of Choice? guinness/water/mt dew
• E-Essential Item You Use Everyday? glasses
• F-Favorite Color? I wear black on the outside cause black is how I feel on the inside
• G-Gummy Bears Or Worms? gummi sour worms
• H-Hometown? Burlington, NC
• I-Indulgence? iTunes and computer stuff
• J-January Or February? they both suck
• K-Kids & Their Names? no kids, that I know of
• L-Life Is Incomplete Without? guinness
• M-Marriage Date? see above
• N-Number Of Siblings? me myself and I, only child
O-Oranges Or Apples? How about them apples? really a tie
P-Phobias/Fears? The only thing we have to fear is the fear of being afraid.
• Q-Favorite Quote? There are many but will go with: "I'm not unwell, thank you." - George Carlin
• R-Reason to Smile? a smile is a frown upside down
• S-Season? Pepper or cinammon. Oh, probably Fall.
• T-Tag Three People? If you wanna do it, do it. I am not the boss of you now.
• U-Unknown Fact About Me? I am not as laid back on the inside as I seem on the outside.
• V-Vegetable you don't like? Most of them.
• W-Worst Habit? I have not yet begun to procrastinate
• X-X-rays You've Had? both hands, head, midsection
• Y-Your Favorite Food? hot dogs, peanut butter, mac and cheese, pies - I could go on
Z-Zodiac Sign? Scorpio - yep, welcome to the darkside
• B-Best Friend? I had a best friend once, in high school. He lied to me, tried to take my girlfriend and was the cause of me being in the hospital for 3 days. I havent designated a best friend since. Kinda sad really.
• C-Cake or Pie? yes, please
• D-Drink Of Choice? guinness/water/mt dew
• E-Essential Item You Use Everyday? glasses
• F-Favorite Color? I wear black on the outside cause black is how I feel on the inside
• G-Gummy Bears Or Worms? gummi sour worms
• H-Hometown? Burlington, NC
• I-Indulgence? iTunes and computer stuff
• J-January Or February? they both suck
• K-Kids & Their Names? no kids, that I know of
• L-Life Is Incomplete Without? guinness
• M-Marriage Date? see above
• N-Number Of Siblings? me myself and I, only child
O-Oranges Or Apples? How about them apples? really a tie
P-Phobias/Fears? The only thing we have to fear is the fear of being afraid.
• Q-Favorite Quote? There are many but will go with: "I'm not unwell, thank you." - George Carlin
• R-Reason to Smile? a smile is a frown upside down
• S-Season? Pepper or cinammon. Oh, probably Fall.
• T-Tag Three People? If you wanna do it, do it. I am not the boss of you now.
• U-Unknown Fact About Me? I am not as laid back on the inside as I seem on the outside.
• V-Vegetable you don't like? Most of them.
• W-Worst Habit? I have not yet begun to procrastinate
• X-X-rays You've Had? both hands, head, midsection
• Y-Your Favorite Food? hot dogs, peanut butter, mac and cheese, pies - I could go on
Z-Zodiac Sign? Scorpio - yep, welcome to the darkside
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
Nonesuch #230 10 Years!
I recently celebrated a 10 year anniversary, no small feat these days in which change is constant.
It was 10 years ago over Thanksgiving that I started to grow my beard.
The girl I was dating at the time said she liked beards and I said that I could grow a full one in about 2 weeks. I had a goatee at the time but I shaved that off and started fresh Thanksgiving morning. By the weekend, I had a shadow and was well on my way. Less than 2 weeks later I had a full beard and have kept it ever since. There are many people who have never seen me without one. I am not I would recognize myself if ever I did shave it. I have had it at various lengths from halfway down my chest to very short just along the neckline. I like it medium length. It doesn't get it my way. I may cut my hair but I dont think the beard will go away.
And now: Beards Through The Years
Last day of 7th grade. I was shaving 3 times a week just to be cool.
Sophomore in college, had the goatee thing going on. Similar to what it looked like before I shaved it off to start the beard.
Christmas 2001(I think)
October 2002 at friend's wedding in DC. I did trim it for the occasion.
December 2005/January 2006
May 2006 - right after I shaved my hair off
Now
It was 10 years ago over Thanksgiving that I started to grow my beard.
The girl I was dating at the time said she liked beards and I said that I could grow a full one in about 2 weeks. I had a goatee at the time but I shaved that off and started fresh Thanksgiving morning. By the weekend, I had a shadow and was well on my way. Less than 2 weeks later I had a full beard and have kept it ever since. There are many people who have never seen me without one. I am not I would recognize myself if ever I did shave it. I have had it at various lengths from halfway down my chest to very short just along the neckline. I like it medium length. It doesn't get it my way. I may cut my hair but I dont think the beard will go away.
And now: Beards Through The Years
Last day of 7th grade. I was shaving 3 times a week just to be cool.
Sophomore in college, had the goatee thing going on. Similar to what it looked like before I shaved it off to start the beard.
Christmas 2001(I think)
October 2002 at friend's wedding in DC. I did trim it for the occasion.
December 2005/January 2006
May 2006 - right after I shaved my hair off
Now
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